i'm struggling today with words to express how much my heart is breaking for my cousin mary.  one of her newborn twins, sophia, passed away yesterday at 5 weeks old and i can't imagine what she is going through.  i've had this feeling that once our kitten gets here she'll be safe and we'll be able to protect her, but clearly that's not how it works.  we're signed up for a lifetime of risk and worry.  i just don't understand how something so beautiful and perfect can be taken away so quickly.